The "Joy" of last trimester

2:16 a.m Japan Time

Hungry, sleepy, can't breath

If I take a meal now, I will not allowed to sleep, the meals caused the heartburn...

Yay!!! I am trying to enjoy my last last trimester...

But,the fact is...this is not easy. My life full of complaints.

Almost all of the pregnancy symptoms that written on the baby center has attacked me...

It is hard to go to sleep at night. I do not want to sleep at noon, and become an owl in the night. 

Ideally, I want to be a good housewife after quit from my job...which means preparing breakfast for us, bento for my hubby, kiss him before go to work (too drama?)... clean the house, make lunch, going out or take nap, then prepare dinner...and go to bed together. 

Arghh....

My New Journey (Part 3)

Okay, it's been about 3 months since my last post bout my pregnancy journal, and honestly I'm not type of woman who like to makes daily record (I was, but not now...depend on my mood).
Actually I forgot about what happened on July-August period...especially related with prego thingy...
But, I'll try to write the things that still stay in my memory

July (22-25 weeks)

- Since my hospital does not have 3D or 4D ultrasound facilities, I went to another clinic that provide 3D/4D ultrasound. In my 21st week, we went to that clinic, to met our baby, and wished could see his face.
But, my baby was not photogenic, or shy...he hide his face, turn his face to my back. Hmphh....(I wish I could ask back my JPY5000...*cried)
The doctor was surprised with our baby's size, it was too big for 21st week. (his size about 25 weeks)
- I had new hobby, baking and cooking. I made cakes, bread, etc. As the result, I gain too much weight =(
- Insomnia weeks has been started, I got what they called "heartburn" or Acid reflux. So, everytime I try to lying down, you felt like you want to throw up all your food...(>  <)
- Fatigue. I felt my legs were getting weaker
- Not comfortable with my current bra, bought some new bra's ^^
- Swollen Feet
- Started Maternity Swimming class every Saturday

This is the best shot during 3D/4D ultrasound session 

August (26-30 weeks)

- Last month in my office. Peak of summer in Japan, very very humid and hot....especially for prego
- Had super duper terrible backache...
- Cut my hair
- Me and my hubby had same schedule for our summer holiday for 1 week. We arranged short trip to lake near Mt. Fuji. On the first day, we went to the biggest Factory Outlet in Kanto area. Windows shopping is not for me...I could not do it, though I was still on second trimester. We only bought baby clothes...^^
For the second day we went to Yamanaka lake, and Sun flower field. It was very refreshing trip for both of us. Very thankful to my lovely hubby for arranged this trip for us...
- On 17th August (27week) , went to hospital for routine check up, but this time with the midwife. She did not do the ultrasound, only measured my belly, checked baby's heart beat. She warned about my weight gain!!! Starting  control my sugar consumption, no more snacks... at this time I gained 12,5 kg (--;)
I only allowed to gain maximum 500 gram every weeks, which in reality is very difficult huh...
- Baby moves a lot, sometimes I could felt his body part, which stuck up on my upper belly (I bet it was his leg?)
- Had some stomach cramp during my 28 weeks, easily got tired...

My best shot during short trip on Summer Holiday (27 week)

September (31-34 weeks)

- Officially a housewife now. So happy, that I don't have to commute every rush hour, but so sad, because no income anymore (> <).
-Officially entered last trimester of my pregnancy. So far, this is the hardest one (harder than the first one).
-Everyday I found new symptom, I found new things to complain, I found new thing to worry. My mood like roller coaster, I cried, I angry, I got bad mood...etc...
- Got baby things, maternity things from my sister (so I don't need to buy new one)
- Bought new sofa, rack, rearranged our living room
- Went to routine check up, baby weight 1772 gr on 30 weeks (big for its average, which only about 1500 gr, doctor smiled and said that my placenta was very big. It should be a good thing though).
Succeed controlled my weight gain from the last visit with the midwife. There is nothing to do to control the baby weight, no need to diet, just control sugar or salt intake.
Oh, officially it is a boy. Before, doctor never said 100% is a boy, but this time she found the baby gender very clearly. ^^
- Had another blood test.
- Can not walk too far, take a rest every time saw a bench or chair.
- Bought another baby clothes.
- My hubby always check my activity during the day, and will warning me if I just stayed at home...He urge me to had activity outside, so I could prevent boredom, and obesity.
- On mid of Sept, went to another routine check up (32 week), met the midwife not doctor. Blood test result was okay, only I had some anemia. So she prescribed Iron supplement for me. I talked a lot with her, that my baby is very moody. He only moves when he want to moves... I turn on the light on my tummy to see his reaction. Based on the sources that I read on internet, baby will respond to light. But not with my baby...
She said, is okay, as long my baby is moving around, maybe he just moody... (like his mother???!?!)
- Bought baby things with hubby
- Started wash baby clothes, towel, diaper, etc...(but still have many to wash)
-Backache was getting worse...lying down made it worse.
- I had what it called Restless Leg Syndrome at night...Insomnia has started...
- Had joint paint in my fingers, especially in the morning and during the night. Also little numb on my feet palm.
- Urge my husband to massage me before to sleep ...back pain is my nightmare..
- Getting waddle...I walk like a duck
- Baby kicks a lot...and sometimes very hurt. He got hiccups about one or two times a day, so funny...^^
- I had pain on my belly skin...but not stomach cramp...only on skin...I bet because my belly is getting bigger. Nothing to do, just put a lot of baby oil and body butter on my belly....
- By the end of the month (33 week) I gained around 13-14 kg.

New Sofa, and baby clothes laundry... 

Me, 33 week

To be continued (^^)
(Lately I never use my brain maximally, so please forgive my bad grammar)

Short note on July 30th 2012

I will enter my last month in this company by the end of August. After that I will be a full-time housewife… (Not my dream though…but with pleasure will do it this time)

Now I am looking for some activities plan for the next two months I will have till the baby is born.

Maybe planning for another job hunting after delivering?  Ugh no no…actually I get a little trauma with job hunting in Japan…but maybe someday I have to do it again, considering that I want to send my kid to the daycare ( I prefer my kid go to the daycare, so he/she could learn a lot of fun things and know the basic step about how to socialize)


Otherwise, I should think other ways, if I don’t want to go back as office lady…

I prefer the last option, but how to find the idea about what should I do is not as simple to say.

Therefore, I have to find out the answer from now. Doing freelance, go back to school etc…

But the most important thing is that I want to keep my life filled with activities, I do not want to let my brain and nerves are getting dull.

Lately, I have started to try new activities…such as baking, cooking, and maybe other new activities on next …

Baking is a new thing for me. I’ve tried some simple recipes from internet, two times it went smoothly, and two times big failed. I still have no idea about how to make a soft cake…. =(  
But I am eager to try another recipes for the next time (depend on my mood though ^_^)

My Second baking trial Choux Cream 

Maybe could you share your favorite simple recipes with me? =)

Have a nice week!!! 

My New Journey (Part 2)

June (17-20 weeks):

-     On June, my hubby has three business trips to Indonesia and Hiroshima. So, every time he was on the trip, I left alone in home.... ( -  -; ) But as rewards, he gave me many souvenirs of Indonesian spicy, foods, snacks...^^

-     On 8^th of June, I went to the hospital for irregular check up schedule, because I got pain on my abdomen. Since I went out of practice hours, I was ended on the emergency room, with a young intern (not yet a doctor?!? Assistant??!?!). I got my internal check up, measurement of my cervix, bleeding confirmation....not so professional....Because it was hurt...(> <) But I saw my baby was healthy and moving around in my stomach ( I was very relief about it). The young doctor suggest me to stay in the hospital for one night to check all my condition entirely...but I refused it...I could not feel any pain anymore since I came to the hospital...seriously...

-     In the end I thought (my own conclusion), it was only constipation problems...maybe...Then the doctor prescribed me pain relief medicine, and kind of traditional herbs for my blood circulation...

-     I got another on-off abdomen pains again sometimes...

-     I went to Tokyo International Toy Show with my hubby, and had romantic photo session with random Spiderman...

-     I met my obstetrician on 20^th, I met my sleepy baby...she said I have big baby...a little bit big for 19 weeks baby... I could not confirm my baby’s sex yet...

-     Went to antenatal class with my husband. We learned how to put diapers, how to bath the baby, and gave my hubby chance to be a pregnant mom by put him a 9kg pregnant jacket...  Met another pregnant women on our neighborhood, share stories, heard explanation about how to register to day care center (with very very limited space though...I think this will be another new task to do soon after delivery...hiks )

-     My tummy is very very big for 5 months pregnant...normally, Japanese prego mom has very small tummy...During antenatal class my tummy as big as 9 months Japanese prego mom...WOW... Even my parents thought I have twins...

-     Had roller coaster mood swings, caused by hormone?

-     Got cough... infected by my husband. Unfortunately, I was not allowed to drink any kind of medicine, it was very torturing... Lemon and honey also hot ginger tea was good remedy at least...

 To be continued...       

Pregnancy photos

My pregnancy photos....5 W -> 12 W -> 14 W -> 17 W -> 22 W

My New Journey (Part 1)

I'm on the way to be a mother... half way to go (123 days by now)

Now I'm on my 22weeks. I was always thinking that someday if I got pregnant I will write down all my journey in a pregnancy journal day by day, and record every little things that occurred during my pregnancy periods. Now, I'm a preggo, and the fact is I always forget to write any journal, and not always in the good mood to write any record about my baby, my body from time to time. 

But, now I tried to recall my memories (which had turn so bad since I got pregnant), and here are some little summaries about my journey since last March :

March 4th: it was Saturday morning, I was worried about my period since the days before. 
So, I decided to have a self pregnancy test in the morning....Whoaaa....the result was  (+) Positive, two strips....

Then we went to the obstetrician to ensure it, the doctor told us that it was too early to check my uterus by ultrasound. So we had to go back on the next two weeks. But yes, I was positive pregnant... ^^

The rest of March :

• I felt sleepy all the time, no energy, mild flu symptoms.
• At first when I knew I got pregnant, I felt worries about our future, my job, whether I was ready for being a good mom or not, our financial condition, our apartment is too small for additional family member, etc... (my selfishness I guessed) 
• When I knew I was getting pregnant, I felt that I have to control my meals, ate more healthy foods. At first, I still had good appetite. But around mid of March(6 or 7 weeks pregnancy), the morning sickness attacks was started. Actually not in the morning, but in the afternoon and night (so for me was an afternoon sickness?!?! ) 
• I felt nausea when I saw green colors of vegetable corners in the supermarket (this is true!!!). I skipped after work shopping session, I could not cook for our dinner....
• First vomit: caused by my hubby's cuisine (Felt very bad, since he made a lot of efforts for the dinner (- - ) )
• Since I got my morning sickness period, I only could drink orange juices and coke or soda. I ate a lot of french fries, nuggets, and another fast foods. I could not eat any green vegetables, fish and the other healthy foods.... I could't stand with the smell of vegetables...Banana was my good friends during this period. I was craving for many Indonesian foods, pickles, sour things...(as many people said in the book, or magazine)
• Fortunately, I still have good appetite though I always got nausea after meal, and could eat rice (FYI, rice is the source of energy during morning sickness!!!) 
• Rushed to book the hospital for delivery... Yes!!! In Japan when you know you are pregnant, then the next thing to do is you have to make reservation to the hospital since it have limited capacities. Otherwise, you might end up delivering the baby somewhere out there far from your resident, or in a private clinic with double prices. I was book my hospital (national hospital which only has private room for post delivery stay), on the 3rd week of March for November (my due date), then the next week when I visited the hospital, November already full booked. (fiuhhh...)
• After second meeting with my obstetrician, I got my referral letters: one for my new doctor in the hospital (whom I will visit from now on till my delivery date), and one for ward office to get  a set of pregnancy items (maternal hand book to record my health conditions and my child, a strap for my bag that marks you are pregnant, and coupon book that I could use to  got discount every time I go to the hospital for routine check up, and brochures about maternity life......)
• The next week, I had my first check up in the hospital, met my obstetric (female ^^) Had my ultrasound and saw my baby's embryo ^^. It was predicted my due date on November 11th... 
• Need to go to pees more often in the midnight....
• I hate to commute to my office (till now) for about 60 minutes (120minutes round back) since most people I met won't give me seat, or pretend to sleep after saw my tummy or pregnancy mark chain...what an awkward society... Till on some point, I gave up for their kindness to present me a seat.... only some auntie, or very very rare gentleman Jap  will give me their seats. 
• Had check up session with my dentist.

April (9-12weeks) 

• On my 8 weeks 4 days, I had my second meeting with my obstetric. I saw my baby, and I could see his/her head, tiny body. The baby length 22.3mm, and s(he) has very cute posed...^^ I also had blood test, urine test.
• On our first trimester, we have to see our doctor every two weeks. I met my doctor on the next two weeks... and met again with my baby in ultrasound session ^^ I saw him/her choked.....^^ .I want my hubby also saw it, but unfortunately only me and the doctor.  Then I got result of my blood test. It was said that generally no big problems, but I don't have Rubella antibody (German measles). It is very dangerous if you got infected by this virus during on your first trimester of pregnancy. But since I'm pregnant, I could not get any vaccination. So, I have to be careful, especially to children... I prevented to visit places that have many children. The last,  I got permission to have a trip for Honeymoon (or Babymoon?!)  on the end of the month.^^
• I was craving for Indonesian foods, I got fatigue, I could not walk a lot, I have cramping on my abdomen like PMS symptoms.
• Got about 3 kg weight gains
• Told my boss about my pregnancy
• End of April, went for Honeymoon (Babymoon) to Thailand ^^

May (13-17weeks) 

• We had wonderful times in Thailand. Maybe nothing special like romantic honeymoon moment like you saw in the movies, but it was our first overseas trip (first time to Thai too). We just want to have fun, relaxed, far from Japan (though they always think we are Japanese), shopping, ate sea foods, spicy foods, fruits.....But on the last day I was very tired, and got bad mood. No place to take a rest, and we have night flights...
• Entered second trimester of my pregnancy ^^
• Have little surveyed for Swimming classes in Tokyo
• I will have monthly check up, since I already on my second trimester. I saw the doctor on my 15 weeks, then have stomach ultrasound session for the first time (before, it always vagina ultrasound). I SAW MY BABY...very big compared to my last visit on the previous month. S(he) scratches his/her nose, forehead...hahahaha... Don't know why, I dropped my tears (happiness tears), saw this little creature is alive in my body...
• Got perm my hair  and FAILED!!! =' ( 
• Inspection tour to hospital with my Hubby and other couples, to have an imagination what my room will be during my post delivery stay in hospital, saw the contraction room, delivery room also (Horror!!!  (-_ -; ) )
• Bought new panties..   .( > < )

To be continued..... (semoga tidak malas bikin part 2 nya) 

Beda waktu beda arti...

Mencoba menulis hal yang terbersit di benak kemarin...

Waktu masih muda dulu (ABG maksudnya) pasti pada punya lagu favorit kan? Sampe nulis dan hafalin liriknya ga? 

Kemarin memutar ulang lagu-lagu lama, salah satunya "All the Love in the World" by The Corrs. Salah satu lagu favorit waktu SMU yang hampir terlupakan...

Yang mau gw sampaikan, bahwa dengerin lagi lagu lama, walaupun liriknya tidak berubah, tapi perasaan dan interpretasi kita berbeda banget yah...

Dulu bagian lirik favorit adalah: 

"Don't wanna wake up alone anymore, Still believin' you'll walk through my door

 All I need is to know it's for sure, Then I'll give all the love in the world "

..................................

"Love's for a lifetime not for a moment, So how could I throw it away

Yeah, I'm only human, And nights grow colderWith no one to love me that way"
"Yeah, I need someone who really sees me.............."

Yah, zaman SMU masih single, sering patah hati ngga jelas (gimana mau pacaran kalo lawan yang disukai aja mungkin ga tau kita eksis di dunia ini.....alias ga kenal..hahahaha) 


Denger lirik itu rasanya sepi dan meratapi nasib jadi single, iri sama yang punya pacar….

Dan lucunya interpretasi kalimat “I need someone who really sees me” rasanya ingin bilang hei... gw juga ingin dilihat, diperhatikan…..(dangkal!!)

Dan sekarang (kemarin tepatnya) dengerin lagi lagu ini, yang jadi pusat perhatian gw adalah bagian:

“I'm not lookin' for someone to talk toI've got my friends,

I'm more than okay, I've got more than a girl could wish for,

 I live my dreams but it's not all they say, Still I believe, I'm missin' somethin' reaI

I need someone who really sees me…..”

Yah, mungkin gw uda ada pasangan juga…ini juga berpengaruh yah…

Yang jadi point gw bahwa sebagai seorang cewe gw kudunya selalu bersyukur, dan tidak kurang apapun…tapi bener, disisi lain rasanya ada yang hilang dan kurang….

I need someone who really sees me…orang yang mengerti gw, apa yang gw mau dan gw cari, orang yang bisa membimbing gw….bukan gambaran umum seorang cowo ajah…tapi ini juga bisa cowo/cewe yang bisa guide gw…gituu…

Entah kenapa interpretasi gw jadi begini…(dan mungkin bagi orang lain, lain lagi interpretasinya) 

Waktu mungkin membuat kita dewasa yah…

Dan gw mau coba cari2 lagi lagu lama, dengerin liriknya…perasaan dan interpretasi yang gw tangkap seperti apa sekarang…sejauh apa gw telah berkembang…(ini juga bisa jadi daya ukur loh…menurut gw!!!) 

Kemampuan berkomunikasi

Okay, gw menyerah...pada awalnya ingin menulis post ini dalam bahasa Inggris, tapi udah dua hari nggak selesai-selesai, terkait masalah kemampuan grammar dan vocab gw yang semakin parah. Ditambah, kalau ditulis dalam bahasa Inggris, rasanya seperti kurang pas gitu buat ekspresi'in. 

Jadi, ini sekedar sharing dari apa yang gw pikir, berdasarkan pengalaman business trip terakhir ke Indonesia bulan Februari lalu. Tiap kali ke Indonesia, bisa dibilang tugas utama gw adalah interpreter yang berfungsi sebagai asisten juga. (tergantung misi dari business trip itu sendiri)...

Mulai Januari 2012 ini, gw dan atasan, training persiapan audit di sebuah perusahaan. Dan otomatis gw lah yang menjadi asisten dosen..eh pengajar. 

Nah, peserta yang ikut training, peserta tetap 1 orang, yang lain muncul dan hilang begitu saja tergantung kesibukan (Dan NIAT....dasar orang Indo!). Dan peserta adalah kebanyakan staff kantor umum, yang level manajer ke atas jarang ikut. 

Selama training ini, terus terang gw takut, karena harus bicara di depan orang banyak tentang hal-hal yang selama ini gw ga ngerti. Ditambah ngga ada background engineer....untungnya gw pernah belajar management (operational management), jadi masih ada gambaran tentang apa yang dimaksud atasan gw dan gimana cara menyampaikan ke audience. 

Dari perjalanan ini hal yang bisa gw bilang:

* Pentingnya membaca kondisi dan kemampuan dari lawan bicara: (a.k.a sabar)

Yang gw hadapi selama training adalah level staf, dimana kadang ngga nyambung. 

Juga adalah kesalahan gw, tidak bisa menjelaskan dengan baik, ngomong terlalu cepat.

Tentang masalah tidak bisa menjelaskan terlalu baik, itu mungkin karena EKSPEKTASI GW TERLALU TINGGI .dengan kata lain mungkin secara tidak disadari gw suka berpikir "GINI DOANG MAH NGERTI LAH YA!!" "MASA GINI AJA GA NGERTI" 

Ternyata kenyataannya mereka memang ngga ngerti... hehehehe...

Gw belajar bahwa komunikasi (cara ngomong, kasih contoh, bentuk pendekatan dll)harus disesuaikan dengan kondisi lawan. 

Tapi kalau kebetulan lawan pendengarnya adalah lulusan ITB, entah kenapa gantian gw yang jadi deg-deg'an merasa bodoh dan grogi. 

Ini bukan terjadi kali ini saja, sebelum-sebelumnya juga sudah ada. Di perusahaan lain, gw tanya ke staffnya A, dijawab B, ruwet panjang-panjang kalimatnya tapi ngga ada isinya. Sampe akhirnya penyelesaiannya TELEPON (NGOMONG LANGSUNG). 

Selama hidup di Indonesia, gw selalu dibesarkan di lingkungan khusus...tidak benar-benar membaur. Sekolah yang gw masuki bisa dibilang termasuk yang berkualitas dari segi pendidikan. Bahkan di SMP, gw tiga tahun masuk kelas unggulan walaupun ngga pernah menjadi unggul. Jadi, teman sekeliling gw, orang yang gw hadapi bisa dibilang levelnya ga beda jauh, atau lebih tinggi dari gw (itu yang mama gw harapkan mungkin....) IQ gw bagus, tapi EQ gw mungkin ngga....

Begitu juga SMU, kuliah...semuanya bisa dibilang level sekolahnya bukan sekolah abal-abal. Dan sayangnya setelah lulus kuliah, gw ngga pernah punya pengalaman kerja di Indonesia. Jadi ngga pernah tau "the real community" di Indonesia....karena di bayangan gw setelah masuk dunia kerja, yang dihadapi bukan orang dari kategori tertentu saja, begitu juga rekan kerja bukan dari golongan tertentu saja...tapi benar-benar membaur.....

Jadi kalau temen-temen di Indonesia uda terbiasa dan bisa handle, gw masih kudu banyak belajar. Masih bisa dibilang kesempatan membaur dengan komunitas sosial di Indonesia masih sedikit. 

Ini masih mending lawan bicaranya staff kantor yang sopan dan pernah sekolah, bukan tante-tante dari daerah yang agresif kayak orang kaya baru....(yang nyalain HP selama di pesawat, dua buah HP dinyalain semua, atau orang yang ngga mau ngantri ditegur terus marah.....dsb)

Suatu saat waktu gw kembali ke Indonesia, semoga jiwa damai gw bisa lebih berkurang, agar gw bisa lebih survive di Indonesia...(loh...)

Dan tentunya, gw sangat ingin mengasah kemampuan komunikasi gw, supaya gw bisa berbicara ke banyak orang dari segala kalangan. 

Gappao ala Jennyfer

Sejak di Jepang, gw jadi suka banget sama makanan Thailand. Salah satu favorit makanan Thailand gw adalah Gappao dan Pat thay... Rasanya tiap kali date sama Teddy selalu keluar makan ke resto Thai. Sampe suatu saat, cari tahu gimana bikin Gappao sendiri. 

Percobaan pertama dan kedua sukses...dan gw juga variasi'in Gappao itu dengan nambahin Tahu atau Tempe. Kemarin dapet kiriman tempe dari Indonesia, rasanya mubazir kalo cuma digoreng aja, dan gw coba masak ala Gappao....

Berikut kira-kira resepnya (sumpah..ini baru pertama kali nulis resep masakan sendiri..biasanya ga bisa, ga pernah dan ga mau..hehehehe...)

*Untuk takaran, kira-kira sendiri, sesuai selera

Bahan: 

100 gr Daging giling Babi

100 gr Daging giling Ayam (Daging sapi juga boleh, yang penting daging giling)

Tempe dipotong dadu, digoreng jangan sampe kering (volume terserah)

1 bh Paprika Merah dipotong kecil-kecil

3 bh Piman hijau (semacam paprika kecil, sayur yang dibenci Crayon Sinchan) dipotong kecil-kecil

3-4 siung bawang putih (sesuai selera)

Minyak goreng

Bumbu: 

Arak untuk memasak

Kecap ikan (sedikit aja, kalau kebanyakan bau amis, kira-kira satu sendok teh)

Saos Tiram

Kecap asin

Merica

Gula

Garam

Cabe merah (kalau mau pedas)

Basil (bisa daun basil atau basil kering, ini yang bikin aroma khasnya keluar)

Cara memasak: 

- Masukkan daging giling, tumis sampai berubah warna

- Masukkan bawang putih dan Cabe merah

- Masukkan paprika merah dan piman

- Masukkan semua bumbu kecuali Basil

- Masukkan tempe yang sudah digoreng setengah matang

- Dan terakhir masukkan basil 

- Masak sampai mengeluarkan aroma harum

Sajikan bersama nasi putih hangat. Oh ya, kalau gappao asli Thailand, disajikan juga bersama telur mata sapi setengah matang. 

Selamat mencobaaaaa....(kalau juga ada yang mau coba..=(   .)

Oh ya, ini baru nemuin site tentang masak masakan ini, tapi disajikan dengan ilustrasi. Sangat menarik....

Sakura 2012

I have been stayed in Japan for 5 years, and now entering my sixth year. This year,  it's been my sixth spring season, enjoy the Blossom Sakura in this country. 

Usually people gathering with their family, friends, colleague, picnic under the Sakura's tree which named HANAMI (Hana =flower, Mi= from word Miru, means watching). They gather in park, or along the river which full of line of Sakura's trees, people do chit chat, taking pic, etc...(and often ended with group of stinky drunk man, and make the park smell bed with alcohol, vomit, garbage...yucks!!!). 

But, for the last years, I never do the real hanami (picnic, sit under the Sakura's tree) anymore. 

Maybe my last hanami about 4 years ago when I just moved to Tsukuba. 

I share some Sakura pics of this year for you....

New Themes for 2012

Recently, I have plenty of free times in this office. Not meaning that I'm irresponsible toward my job, but seriously, recently there are nothing to do. So could you imagine that I have to sit sweetly in front of computer for almost 8 hours from Mon to Fri? 

So, today I decided to change my blog's layout. 

Started with searching free blog templates, and it took about 45 minutes for me to decided what kind of theme I will apply to my blog. Then, it took about almost 4 hours (?!?!) to edit the HTML, for editing the color, font size, background....(and almost gave up in the midlle...sigh!! You might say: "what?!? 4hours just like thisss???")

And voilaaa....this is the result. Not the perfect one, but I learned  little 'bout basic HTML, and found activities during this dull day. 

But the more important thing is to keep updated this blog, not only change the background huh!?!?!

I'll promise to writing more this year, and I'll try to prove it...

Kilas balik 2011- January 2012

Rasanya lamaa banget ngga update blog ini.

Atau mungkin ada kecenderungan gw nulis blog ini di kala kalut dan galau saja yah?

Jadi dengan kata lain, bisa dibilang sekarang lagi tidak kalut dan galau?

Terakhir update blog adalah bulan Juni, setelah itu, bulan Juli gw dapat kesempatan buat belajar suatu bidang baru, dunia automotive dan manufacturer....

Mulai July, gw "digaet" sama perush konsulting untuk desain interior mobil...

Setelah itu, sampai detik ini, banyak kejadian yang pengen gw rangkum secara garis besar:

1. July: Start kerja di kantor baru, jauh dari Tokyo (1,5 jam), pulang pergi 3 jam...baru seminggu kerja , dibawa ke Indonesia, ke klien2 dan calon klien di Indonesia...tentunya sambil belajar juga sambil jadi penerjemah juga. Ngga ngerti...apa yang diomongin ke gw, dan gw juga ngga ngerti jadinya ma omongan gw sendiri... Gw inget, diajak meeting sama bos2 klien, tiba2 uda bersitegang dan adu urat...*nahlohhh* Gw yang peace minded, juga jadi serba salah...ditambah panikan. Baru tau dunia malam orang Jepang di Jakarta dan Cikarang...ada toh tempat minum Jepang (Izakaya) di Jakarta...sampai makanan2nya lengkap...hmmm...

Di bulan ini, dua kali ke Indonesia pulang pergi..baru tau nae pesawat internasional uda kayak nae bus antar kota...(*halah)

2. Agustus: Foto Pre-wed season 1: Summer style...

Lari-lari kepanasan, dateng telat...rambut kacau..hiks...tapi tempatnya bagus. Semula bingung mau cari tempat dimana..di ladang Matahari, tapi mataharinya belum mekar semua, sedangkan seminggu kemudian si fotografernya pulang kampung *nahlohh*

Baru masuk kerja 1 bulan, di bulan Agustus ini ada libur musim panas...berhubung industri perush. gw berhubungan dengan dunia automotive yang terkenal ambil libur panjang untuk musim panas, jadinya gw baru masuk kerja 1 bulan dah libur lagi 10 harian...hohoyy...bengong juga, ga ada temen dan kegiatan yang pasti....

3. September: Ke Indonesia ketiga kalinya...

Banyak yang terjadi di business trip kali ini..dalam arti hal-hal yang berkaitan dengan budaya dan cara pandang...termasuk terhadap hal "kesetiaan". Di sini pandangan gw ke orang Jepang, berubah drastis...

4. Oktober: bulan 10 ini..lupa ada kejadian apa aja..hehehe...

5. November: Bulan nambah usia...ulang tahun terakhir as single person. ^^

Akhir November ini diajak (diajak? ditugasin kaleee....) sama orang kantor ke negara asal nenek Moyang...CHNA. Tepatnya di Shuzhou. Business trip terpanjang...18 hari..

Kalo ke Indonesia, kita lebih ke arah "jualan"nya...di China kita lebih ke arah "guide"ke proses pembuatan barangnya. Tiap negara ada masalah sendiri-sendiri...baik dari mental kerja dan lingkungan. Di China ini juga, banyak rencana tidak berjalan sesuai schedule, bersitegang sama senior, ditambah hawa yang super dingin...Senengnya, dapat temen seumur cewe lagi....karena selama ini gw lah satu-satunya cewe di tempat kerja gw...hiks...

Di bulan November juga sebelum ke China: Foto Pre-Wed season 2 di Tsukuba (tempat kuliah dulu). hmmm...syukurlah di luar dugaan bisa berjalan lancar.

6. December: Awal December masih di China, sampai tanggal 10 baru balik Jepang. China was good, the food very superb...(kok malah makanannya yang dibahas, bukan kerjaannya....). Intinya perjalanan ke China ini, capek, secara emosional dan fisik. Belajar banyak, bahwa bisnis itu banyak gontok2annya...dan kalau dulu lebih rajin belajar bahasa China, tidak perlu nyesel deh pas dah segede sekarang....(ternyata gw rata2 bisa ngerti omongan mereka basically, cuma ngga bisa ngomong...)

Bulan ini penuh banget rasanya...ga sempat libur, langsung sambung kerja, dan juga persiapan balik kampung. Tanggal 23, balik ke Jakarta untuk segala persiapan...

Tentang persiapan nikah, kalau diceritain bisa panjang lebar. Intinya gw ga banyak ikut serta dalam persiapan, apalagi untuk urusan Gereja...tau2 uda beres... (thanks to my mother in law ❤) Panik? tentu saja...banyak alasan ga jelas untuk panik... cari sepatu keliling mall, ga dapet-dapet...akhirnya pasrah pas seminggu sebelum hari H...hehehehe...

7. January: I got Married. 8 January 2012...

So happy...senang aja rasanya uda merit....

(kalau direview lagi, banyak hal-hal kecil yang jauh dari sempurna, belum lagi ditambah omongan sana sini, kritik dan saran..yang kalo didengerin bikin emosi dan gregetan...saat itu gw cuma bisa bilang..yang pasti uda lewat dengan lancar....yang lain biarlah berlalu, dan jadi pembelajaran aja).

Hari ini , gw liat foto-foto merit temen2 di Jawa Timur..entah kenapa gw merasa bersyukur dan lucky bisa merit di Jakarta. Walaupun sama-sama Chinese, kayaknya di Jawa Timur lebih Mewah, dan ribet... dan kalau dibandingkan pesta gw kemarin, pesta temen2 gw rasanya semuanya "Wah" dan exclusive...

(dan benernya lebih lucky lagi kalo bisa private marriage di Bali...*mimpiyangtidaktercapai*)

Dan setelah merit, langsung berpisah...Teddy langsung balik ke Jepang, dan gw langsung sambung kerja ke Cikarang (kejamnya perusahaan Jepang...hohoho) no honeymoon till now...

Balik ke Jepang: tinggal sama Teddy sebagai suami istri...rasanya ga banyak yang berubah.

Yang berubah di gw: rasa aman. Yang gw khawatirin: rasa aman ini, lama-lama takutnya bikin "ability" gw jadi tumpul. Yang kemungkinan besar dikarenakan ketergantungan.... not a good things... I hope I could cope this matter asap.

Tentang kerjaan, gw merasa akhir karier gw bukan di perusahaan ini. Untungnya gw bukan pegawai tetap juga, jadi gw ga merasa terikat.....semoga bisa menemukan apa yang gw mau secepat mungkin...(omongan dari Jaman Kadal yang ga kewujud-wujud...)

2012....a better year for all of us.

Mohon maaf, bahasanya kacau dan campur aduk....