My Journal of Life: May 2007

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Damnn!!!
No childhood anymore!!! Adult is adult, making many decisions...unimportant one until the biggest one!!! Why evrything come in the same time???evrything that i have to decide!!! All important, for me, my self, especially my future. I need help, i need love, i need to be care, i need frenn....hiiikkkkss!!!!
What ever will be, will be, Tiap keputusan ada resikonya. Semoga gw kuat dan bisa menjalani segala konsekuensi dr keputusan yang bakal gw buat. Hahahahahaa....Have a nice day!!!!

Monday, May 21, 2007

Helllpppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate to say that I don`t know what I want to do in my life. What is my vision, mission for my future, what i want to be. Some people said that twenties are hard phase, because you want so many things, don`t know what to do. That`s exactly what I thinking about. I want so many things, i don`t know what i want to be, it`s so sad. Am i the only one who think like this now, or there are also million people who have same age like me, have same worries like mine????????

I am really afraid if i can`t decided right now, next year or next two years or even next 10 years the situation still the same. What should I do, no one can help me, because i am the only one who can solve it. But now evrythin seem so messy....i hate that!!!!!! For you who have passed your twenty phases, have you ever had same situation like me now???????????? aaarrghhhh.....

Don`t laugh for my bad grammars!!!! Gut nite...

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

My Weekend

Sunday, May 13rd 2007

I have been in japan for 1 month and 15 days. Fiuuuhhhh…as I have told u before that I feel time is going so fast here. Yesterday I have to wait my sister in Shinjuku Station, almost one hour. At that time I was looking there are so many people walking around. So many styles (kimono, ayumi hamasaki styles, harajuku styles, etc), young and old people, all of them looked busy, walked so fast, as if there were no tomorrow. Eventhough they used the high heels they can walk so fast, running, upstairs and downstairs. Me? Eventhough I use sneakers I can`t through the downstairs so fast as they did. Maybe if I wear high heels I will take off it first then running.
Yesterday I went to the Thailand Festival, it was really big festival, with so many people. And they also arranged the festival in other big city in Japan. That was really-really fantastic. When Indonesia will arranged same festival here??? In those festival, I can find salak, manggis, pisang goreng, tug-tug (Thailand`s traditional vehicle). Please don`t give comment about BANCI (ladyboys) Thailand in this posting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (No, I didn`t find a place to apply to be Banci Thailand,so don`t asking!!!!!)
After from Thai festival, I went to a place, near Akiahabara, to met and joined a choir. I still didn`t decide whether to join or not. Just came and joined them practice. Yesterday we sang a bach song, they will have Bach Requiem Mass Concert. It was fun experience, but the language is the big problem for me. I just can understand a little when the conductor told jokes or story when we practiced. But when he gave instruction, I could understand. Unfortunately, almost all of the members can`t speak English. Maybe they could understand, but was afraid to speak. Same like me, sometimes can understand Japanese, but I still have problem when talked. But they were so kind and welcome me well. The conductor remind me with one of the conductor in PSM. Use glasses, have baritone voice, thinner, but also have big stomach, and the main point is he also easily sweated, and his face become red. Remind me with someone, can you guess???
After the practice, they were going to drink together, but I decided to go home, because it almost 10 o`clock and my dormitory was very far. OOOOO….. I was so happy can sing again, and it reminded me of the memories of Oh La La Dago after practice or job. Hmmm…