May 13th (My real Friday 13th)

Finally I'm a job hunter again....again....

And today (June 13th)exactly one month I already became un-employ-ment

Too many stories left behind these things... and too many wonders that I want to ask to the Creator up there, what are the reasons behind of these rough and irritated series of me vs working society?

Now, I could regain my power a little by little, regain my confidence and belief, that I will get something better if I believe, put effort and seek.

1 month ago, I felt like empty (but fyi, I never regret to release my last job from that company )

...feeling like get lost, why I came to Japan, if every human have their own duty in this world, I wonder what is my duty? Do I really have meaning to be in this world? I know I have to move on and have to do something. I couldn't move, and I didn't make any movement. I pretend like there are nothing happened. I hope something will getting better, but I don't want to make any movement. Hope that somebody will prepare all those things for me.

I felt like I have nothing special, no quality...

My mind filled with negative things....

But I made a movement. Though it was very little, and slow movement.... Helped by my loves one, I rebuild CV ( you have to know, I really hate to write down a CV, *pessimist person is not a good at promoting or selling his/her self*), contacting agent, applied on-lines....

Yup, from these agents, some of them very kind to help me (of course for their own target and money reason)....

Now, Good result is not shown yet, but there's been little progress here.

And I know, its not time to relieve, STILL A LONG WAY TO GO...

I write down the truth about my condition here, to be read by public and my friend. So I will have like a "pressure" to prove that I will (and must...) find a better way ( =occupation).

(So now I have no more reasons to spending my days with lazy mode. =) )

Yoshh ganbaruuuu zo!!!