There was a time in my childhood, while I am being stabbed from back by my best friend.
Just a child, I thought she was my best friend, but I never know that we didn't have same thougt. I think maybe I am innocent or too stupid, she always said something bad about me.
Maybe I was very selfish at that time, but why she never told me the truth so I know my fault, and won't do that anymore. Since I know that she often said bad things from my side, I was very disapointed by her. After that, I thougt from now on, it won't be the same again. But we still have communication as usual, we never being enemy (except when we were at junior high school for some reasons).
Maybe coz of that moment, it gave me big wound until now. Just simply things but i think since that time it's so hard for me to trust someone. I can forgive, but hard to forget if you have hurt me.
That moment not just the only betrayal or rejection that I got, but when it said about friendship, I think I already got a lot of rejection. Kind of when someone is kind with you, ooo...she/he is a good friend, but the fact are they act that just because they need something from you. (ada butuh ajee)
Just a child, I thought she was my best friend, but I never know that we didn't have same thougt. I think maybe I am innocent or too stupid, she always said something bad about me.
Maybe I was very selfish at that time, but why she never told me the truth so I know my fault, and won't do that anymore. Since I know that she often said bad things from my side, I was very disapointed by her. After that, I thougt from now on, it won't be the same again. But we still have communication as usual, we never being enemy (except when we were at junior high school for some reasons).
Maybe coz of that moment, it gave me big wound until now. Just simply things but i think since that time it's so hard for me to trust someone. I can forgive, but hard to forget if you have hurt me.
That moment not just the only betrayal or rejection that I got, but when it said about friendship, I think I already got a lot of rejection. Kind of when someone is kind with you, ooo...she/he is a good friend, but the fact are they act that just because they need something from you. (ada butuh ajee)
So no wonder if sometimes its hard for me to trust someone, eventhough maybe they have told me the truth, but I still thougt, aaa...they just act to make us happy, or for keep a good relationship.
But it doesn't mean that I never trust someone at all. I always try to trust someone, just there are a times when that ' Jangan-jangan dia...' thougt appear in my mind. I love to make a friends, evenmore when I feel convenience(nyaman) with someone I would do anything for you, by not hope something in return.
Do you ever have same experience like mines?
2 comments:
gue kah?
who is (s)he???
not me kan tik??
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