Servis klinik kampus

Menjelang status mahasiswa akan berakhir,memakai semua fasilitas dari kampus.Bulan lalu cleaning dan cek up gigi gratis. Tadi konsultasi tentang semua kebingungan dan keluh kesah di counseling klinik kampus. Dan sekarang mau test ato periksa tulang di dokter tulang.

Faktor ga mau rugi juga ada seh,tapi di negara ini biaya dokter buat pelajar dan orang pekerja bedanya jauh banget.

Di sini manula dimana-mana. Kadang gw salut sama banyak orang2 tua d sini yang masih banyak bekerja keras.Udah bungkuk,tapi masih nyapu jalan...naek turun tangga stasiun sendirian.Tapi di sisi laen tiba2 teringat salah 1 ucapan Sang Buddha,salah 1 dr 4 ksdihan manusia adalah menjadi tua.Seperti nenek yg lagi duduk d depan gw skrg,tua,sendirian...kayaknya sepi banget..kasian. Malah mengingatkan gw sama 3 orang yang semakin menua yg menunggu gw d rumah. Sedih...dan lebih sedih lagi ketika tau gw blm bs berbuat byk untuk mereka.

February 2010

Sudah masuk minggu ke dua di bulan Februari. Jadi ingat posting gw di taon 2008, sebelum pengumuman kelulusan masuk universitas. Waktu itu juga sama di bulan Februari, gw masih ingat, dari kamar gw yang lama di Tokyo, sambil melihat langit yang keren banget di sore hari. Dan, minggu lalu, waktu mau ke WC, tiba2 liat langit sore yang juga sama keren di sore hari....
Langit di musim dingin emang keren......
Apakah ini jadi pertanda bagus atau tidak buat gw? Gw ga tau. Yang pasti, sekarang dalam diri gw, banyaaak banget segala macam hal yang gw pikir. Selain masalah pekerjaan yang belum ketemu-ketemu, juga segala macam misi yang masih harus dibenerin dari diri gw..........

Mungkin gw masih anak-anak, belum jadi dewasa sama sekali....
Ayo berjuang Jennyfer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010

Tahun sudah berganti, sudah siapkah gw untuk maju menghadapi segala tantangan yang akan datang? Kalau semuanya lancar, seharusnya tinggal beberapa saat lagi masa gw menjadi pelajar selesai. Setelah itu the real real real world menanti di muka.
Saat untuk menunjukkan semua kemampuan gw…..dan gw sudah tidak sabar untuk itu…..here I Come 2010!!!

1 kata untuk tahun 2009, bukan tahun gw!!! Cari kerja, nglamar berpuluh puluh perusahaan, dan semuanya ditolak. Jangankan perusahaan ternama, perusahaan kecil yang cuma punya karyawan dibawah 20 orang aja ga diterima….

Tapi gw tetap yakin, ada yang terbaik menunggu buat gw, semua penolakan dan kegagalan ini, mungkin juga semacam pecut bahwa gw memang kurang berusaha yang maksimal….

**tapi sumpah…gw sejujurnya tetap khawatir bisa dapat kerja atau ngga……**

Tahun 2009, secara mentally gw benar2 down….bahkan dibanding tahun pertama datang ke Jepang, bisa dibilang semangat gw hilang. Ditelan kesunyian, kedamaian, dan FACEBOOK!!! Gw terlalu cepat puas, dan pikiran gw yang terlalu manis, damai akan dunia dan masa depan. Tahun ini dengan sukses membuat gw menjadi seorang yang pesimistis…..Sampai sekarang gw masih heran, apa yang hilang dari diri gw, sehingga sampe kehilangan semangat seperti ini….gw menjadi seorang dengan kepribadian yang dulu gw adalah paling benci….pengeluh…

Ada saat gw penuh bersyukur, atas semua yang gw terima hingga detik ini, dan ada saatnya juga untuk pertama kali gw merasa senang dengan tema penelitian gw, ada saatnya gw merasa beruntung tinggal di kota yang terlalu damai tapi alamnya indah ini, ada saatnya gw bersyukur bisa maen internet di kamar yang hangat, bukan di lorong stasiun tidur dengan alas kardus bekas…….

Tapi, ketika emosi itu datang, seakan semua rasa syukur itu menjadi keluhan, makian, umpatan rasa kesal dan tidak adil.

Di sisi lain, gw diberi kesempatan untuk bisa dapat beasiswa, yang bisa mensupport gw selama ini dari segi keuangan, hingga akhirnya gw bisa pulang dan ketemu keluarga gw…dan keponakan-keponakan gw yang belum pernah gw liat sebelumnya.


Tahun ini, banyak pergi ke perusahaan Jepang, banyak ketemu orang Jepang, bersaing dengan mereka, berteman…belajar banyak dari pengalaman ini. Banyak hal dari proses mencari kerja ini, yang kadang membuat gw semakin antipati terhadap society negara ini. Bukan hal baik sih, apalagi kalau ke depannya gw masih mau berharap bekerja dan tumbuh di sini. Di sisi lain, mereka mengajarkan sejuta hal baru, pemikiran yang mungkin kadang aneh dan ga masuk akal, tapi kadang mengajarkan jalan untuk tetap berpikir rasional. Oleh karena itu, gw lebih banyak menerima, dan dibesarkan oleh mereka, tidak ada yang sempurna…2010 gw harus lebih banyak belajar untuk memahami yang namanya perbedaan, dan belajar untuk lebih menerima mereka apa adanya. Yang brengsek mungkin memang segudang, tapi yang baik juga tidak sedikit….. tergantung dari gw membawa diri saja…..

Tahun 2010, resolusi gw,yang terpikir detik ini...

Sebagai agenda utama, CARI KERJA!!!

Positive Thinking, dan SELF CONFIDENCE, OPTIMIST!!!

PEDULI KESEHATAN DAN KECANTIKAN KULIT!!!!


2010…akuu dataaangggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't forget to wear sunscreen...

Found it from my fren's note: good advices for us... encourage me to quote some of it to be my new year resolution...especially about the relationship with old buddy....

Wear sunscreen. (by Marry Schmich) Chicago Tribune
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.

Kemana kamu semangat mudaku? kok aku kayak orang hilang semangat gini toh toh toh....

Now its about the song...

Suddenly, I google 「MUSIC FOR WEDDING PARTY」...

Then continued to hear the song in YOUTUBE...

Does not mean I want to be a bride rite now, just mmm...imagine, what kind of song would be perfect for a wedding (my wedding....someday...) hahahaha...

Firehouse - Love of a Lifetime
John Denver - Annie's song...(its so sweet to imagine that the groom sing this song, while the bride walks down the isle)
At Last - Etta James
Grow old with me
Going To The Chapel Of Love- The Dixie Cups
For My Wedding - Don Helley (simple song, but love the lyrics)
Unforgettable- Nat King cole
1234 - Plain white
etc etc..........

This is just small talks on my sunday afternoon....maybe all of you know better a lot than me, so please share it with me too...^__^


(Btw, sudah lama ga pernah pergi ke resepsi pernikahan di Indo, lagu pas pengantin dateng...kira2 apa ya? apa masih sama seperti lagu yang gw kenal saat gw kecil???)

Almost 25

Dear My Guardian Angel,

I do not know whether you are exists or not, but since I could “pass” all these things in this world till this moment, save and alive, so I guess that you are here, there or somewhere to “watch” me...

About 25 years ago, my mommy sent me to this world, this never ending problem of world...

To learn that life sometimes is fu*king suck....sometimes is wonderful...

Life is about white, black and grey...

To learn about how to life as a human, and interact with others

Though some of them are bit*h

And some of them are the special people in my life

To keep growing though sometimes it is different with what I've planned

And feeling lost, undirected…

Or sometimes I feel so high...

I knew it,

But

Sometimes I don’t understand, keep worrying…

That recently my life turns to be grey…

I feel stag, not growing any longer

And sometimes I do not know who I am anymore

Day by day

I hate myself more and more

So please my guardian angel,

For my birthday, I wish...

For a pure heart to keep think clearly in this grey moment

For a strong mind to fight for everything that will happen tomorrow

Spiritual power to keep my soul alive and not forget my creator

An ability to manage time better and send away my laziness

A “you are hired” news from a company

Eagerness to “delete” my “facebook” account till my thesis is finish

Simply heart to stop complaining and comparing my life with others

Another years in this country…

And other years of life to make other wishes in the next birthdays….